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Miss Atomic Bomb
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Current Music: Heaven Knows - The Pretty Reckless
 
 
 
Miss Atomic Bomb
17 April 2014 @ 09:46 pm
School sucks for me. I can't explain why, but I just keep messing up at it. I can't bring myself to get to class every day and sit there for a few hours when I just don't think I'm learning anything worthwhile. I get that everyone has to do general education classes and I should just suck it up, but I don't know how to. Whenever I do manage to get myself to class, I just doodle the entire time because I have no idea what's going on and I just don't care. And even in the beginning (before I fall super far behind), I still doodle because I just can't bring myself to sit there and listen. I end up tuning everything out and start fidgeting.

This is my third school in five years, so it's not like I can say "maybe the environment isn't working." It's clearly obvious the actual school thing isn't working, but I don't know what to do about it.

And I want a degree, I really do. I want to be able to put that stupid piece of paper on my wall and say "I did that!" But I just don't know how to get to that point when I can't even go to the three basic classes I'm taking now.

There's no point to this except to say I don't know what to do with myself. I have to finish school because I can't even get a retail job right now, so school is all I have. But I kinda don't have it because I just keep messing up at it.

 
 
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Miss Atomic Bomb
Earlier today I was crying while eating Nutella straight out of the jar.
All because I was bummed out by my life.

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Current Mood: angryangry
Current Music: Open Your Eyes - Snow Patrol
 
 
 
Miss Atomic Bomb
07 March 2014 @ 11:47 pm

As I sat down on my bed and continued to chug my brother's shitty beer (MGD), I started to cry because I really do think I have a problem.

I'm sitting here drinking shit that doesn't even taste good because I know if I drink enough, I can get that fun lightheaded feeling. That's a problem. And this is the first time that specific "that's a problem" has hit me and it's just upsetting.

I keep thinking I need to stop drinking all together, but then I really miss the lightheaded feeling and so I tell myself "I'll just drink until that happens" but that's a problem.

And I really think I need to stop drinking all together, but then I ask Hannah things like "teach me how to drink good beer so I don't have to spend as much to get buzzed."

Like I'm just not committed to change yet and that is also a problem, I know.

GOSH CATIE, HOW MANY TIMES CAN YOU FIT "THAT'S A PROBLEM" INTO THIS POST? I know, I know. But yeah.

This post has no point, but I felt I needed to get it down.

 
 
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Current Music: A Better Son/Daughter - Rilo Kiley
 
 
 
Miss Atomic Bomb
11 February 2014 @ 02:32 pm
I went to my cousin's baby showerlol @ me. lol @ my life.Collapse )

I just want a little one I can look at like this when he's there near me at all hours of the day.

(don't tell me what is actually happening in this scene, I like to believe what I believe about this gif)
 
 
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Current Music: Merry Go 'Round - Kacey Musgraves
 
 
 
Miss Atomic Bomb
25 December 2013 @ 01:36 pm

Dezi wins at describing movies.
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FORGET WHAT I SAID. I'M IN SLEEP CLOTHES, EATING ALMOST AN ENTIRE BAG OF LAYS CHEDDAR AND SOUR CREAM CHIPS AND PERUSING THE INTERNET. THIS DAY HAS TAKEN A TURN FOR THE SAD AND LONELY.
 
 
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Miss Atomic Bomb
This isn't even a real life update, it's just me posting like five pictures of things. But at least I'm not pretending like this isn't a half-assed post. lol
<3
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Current Mood: awakeawake
Current Music: Ways to Go - Grouplove
 
 
 
Miss Atomic Bomb
01 November 2013 @ 12:05 am
I have a doctor's appointment on the 4th, don't worryCollapse )
 
 
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Current Music: We Are Young - fun.
 
 
 
Miss Atomic Bomb
10 October 2013 @ 10:04 pm
“I can still hear his voice so clear, do you think I’ll forget it? Because I’m afraid that I will.”

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